Tabula Rasa

“In every change, in every falling leaf there is some pain, some beauty. And that’s the way new leaves grow.”
― Amit Ray

I always like new beginnings, fresh phases, starting over. Who doesn’t? Resolving to be better is on everyone’s list whether it’s on New Year’s Eve, New Year’s Day, Christmas, your birthday or your wedding anniversary. Heck, even Sunday nights (especially when you’re dreading another busy week ahead) or simply those moments when you wake up in the morning are opportunities to start over. Sadly, my fixation on these episodes have often gotten me in so much trouble (more on those next time) for the past decade. Nevertheless, the point I want to drive home is that everyone of us crave turning over a new leaf. Self-help, motivational and inspirational books don’t get into bestseller lists for nothing.

The first half of this year has been a flurry of new and big things, well, at least for me. I got married to the love of my life for 8 years (on a leap day!), one of my best friends got married as well, my husband and I moved into our own apartment, I finally started to see a psychologist (which has been years overdue), and with the latter part of the year looming, I’m expecting more changes to unfold soon – graduation (fingers crossed), new job, new visa, etc. Exciting those things would have seemed, I welcomed the new changes while living in a foreign land, coping with devastating family problems, and constantly questioning myself with what I’m really capable of as a person.

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The above photo perfectly sums up my journey, I guess it also applies for everyone’s journey as well. I’ve read countless books which mostly focused on the authors’ personal lives, hoping that I could adopt the same things they did in order for me to reach the same successful phase where most of my inspirational authors are right now. But one common theme which surfaces among their works is the idea that everyone has a unique story to write. It might turn out that some have long periods of stability, then would plunge into a big, deep dip afterwards. Some might even draw a longer uphill climb in their journey to the top. Whatever everyone’s picture would look like, one thing is certain: it ain’t gonna be smooth, darling. Hence, I finally came to terms with creating this blog in order for me to write my own life story.

I might dabble on random thoughts, wedding preps advice, tips for living abroad, life musings over coffee, travel adventures, married life chronicles, school, work, etc. Whatever those would be will serve as small puzzle pieces in hopefully forming a picture of my life – imperfect, sometimes messy, but beautiful. Other posts might be mundane or even useless to you. Different strokes for different folks, so just read what suits you. I’ve been struggling with maintaining a personal blog but I hope I’d get to keep this for good.

As I write this first entry, leaves are starting to fall. It’s autumn here in Sydney and I guess I’m undergoing the same season of shedding leaves to make way for something new.

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